CHERISH MEMORIES

 Hey y'all! Hope everything's amazing at your places. 

Here's your girl back with something to write about and it's gonna be something about “my year 2022”. After 2020 every year feels like it's running quickly and I'm unable to think about anything.

So you may call it a quick flashback of my year 2022. To be honest this year was really great for me and hope you guys too had a really good time this year (mmm.. keeping all the bad incidents aside) 

I don't know where to start and where to end this ‘so called digital diary of mine’. 

•Firstly the biggest thing I learnt is to “GO WITH THE FLOW” do not to forget the waves in which you are flowing through. 

•The second thing is “TIME SPARES NONE” umm we have to go through different circumstances but we must “CHERISH THE MOMENTS”.

      After the worldwide pandemic came nothing is same as before and I know that time is moving so fast and we can't change anything. For me everything changed after this pandemic and so i changed.

•I changed the way of thinking.

•I changed the way of talking. And many more which if I go to write about then it'll take a long time. As the time is changing my muddled thoughts are now running clear. 

I faced many difficulties and in that situations i didn't forget to call out to Lord! The year was really challenging for me as it had a lot of experiences and ups & downs . And I suffered a lot but nobody came to know about. My weird tendency is to stay happy no matter what, and that's the reason why no one takes it seriously when I tell em' that I'm not ok. In the month of October -November I went through a lot.

 There was a turning point of my life when I went through something like  temporary brain loss in the month of October . At first I thought that I'm having confusions and my brain can't process anything quickly and it's just because of my Hypotension. To be honest I tried my level best to care for myself, my health and all but I failed. Day by day my forgetfulness increased and when I shared my problems with my Mom she told me that I'll be okay soon. She said, “you are suffering through this forgetfulness just because of the peer pressure of your studies ”. And then she advised me to take rest, but in real I wasn't even worried/stressed about my studies and there wasn't any problem in that..

But my anxiety was on peak when I realised that I was not able to think about anything. To be honest I was numb . After the classes I even used to forget what I studied or with whom I talked that day..and then as the days passed I even forgot the names of  my classmates. I could barely even remember how  my day was.

The time was very difficult for me and whenever I tried to open up with any of my classmates or friends they said, “maybe you're studying so hard that you don't remember anything ”. Indeed no one was serious about the thing I would say.  

My mom then knew that I'm truly suffering from something when she realised that I was forgetting everything, and we prayed for it to God, but there was no comfort and peace for me that time. 

 Even one day my teacher asked me why was I forgetting everything they taught me. And when I told that I tend to forget everything then everyone in the class started laughing and said that it's just because I study so hard, And the thing was heartbreaking because everyone mocked the topic of mine which i was really serious about.

Then the exam days came and I couldn't focus on my studies, the thing was I would forget everything I would study. I tried to share this with my friends but then I stopped because I thought they won't take it seriously. I even ignored my classmates who asked me about my studies or about my life. And so, the days passed and I somehow wrote my exams. 

After that I continuously prayed to God to heal me and then finally God answered to my prayers. He gave me visions and dreams about the cause of my forgetfulness. Then, slowly my mental health recovered in the last week of November. And that's the reason I put lord at the centre of my life. After all that I started to seek God even harder than before.

John 14:27. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

I realised that no man can give you peace or comfort in your dry season of life but God. I knew Jesus closely during my bad times. I could only trust him in my difficulties, no one was there for me when I was suffering badly, but he, the creator of the universe was with me :)

Sometimes we all try to forget bad memories but we cannot, and think of removing that memories from brain . To be honest we all come across to these type of thoughts once in our life. And I too once used to think how cool is it if we forget  some parts or memories of our past but as I experienced it's horrible.

Now my mental health is better but now it feels like I've put all the trash(memories) in a dustbin. Ok keeping this aside, I wanna cherish all the moment's of love and happiness forever.

This year was a great lesson for me and I learnt everything I could learn . The thing which I learned is that not everyone will like the perspectives you have no matter how good/understanding they are. 

 I wanna say to you all is that no matter how good person you are, there will be people who will hate you anyway. Also I saw the true colours of the world, everything in our life comes for a purpose and reason so we must accept everything which comes in our way.

 As the days are passing I'm more excited to spend my time with God, talking to the God is best because he neither judges you nor makes you sad and yeah if u think that “why God let it happen only with me” just remember that he wants to talk to you and wanna help you or he wants to test you.

Everyday when I wake up, the things which comes in my mind is that the world has an end which is coming soon. Being spiritual is such a beautiful thing. God gives peace of mind, comfort and happiness. we know that we're created by God for his glory, but the people are singing glories of the worldly things. And in this way we are disappointing our Lord. Let's not do the same my dear ones. Let's be different by living for our God and serve him with our hearts. 

For me, seeking his presence is better than being with people who don't understand me.God has done many great things for me and I will sing hymn of praise for him. And if you too are in search of peace,  seek him first. Because the Bible tells us - “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these. things shall be added unto you.”(Matthew 6:33)

This verse explains us that we must not pursue wealth and material things before God. If we seek him he'll bless us and fulfill our needs.

Okay I must put a full stop to my words.

Have a blessed NEW YEAR 2023:)

I know the era of being aimless and having fun comes to an end and 2023 will gonna be a very tough and challenging year for me. To be honest the year will be completely different for many of us.

MAY GOD BLESS ALL WHO ARE READING THIS MSG.

LORD ABOVE ALL!!!

BEST WISHES AND PRAYERS!

-ALPHA🌻